Trapped

So for the last two days I have been kind of down. You know how your mind should be your sanctuary, a place to store and hide a way your secrets and thoughts. Well for me it is my worst enemy.

It is my enemy for so many reasons. My mind jumps to multiply places at once. It goes to same old situations of my life and replays over and over again. Thinking about every single detail of my life since I remember everything. And lately everything that has happened has all came back at once. My fear is that my mind will not allow me to escape from what haunts me in the past because unless I get amnesiac I will never forget.

What triggers me the worst is blanking out. I go into deep thought. You may be thinking that’s the best time to catch up with life, but this can go two ways with me. Happy and thinking about all of that good stuff or feeling stupid about myself.

 I blame it on my sign and if you know anything about Cancers then you know what I’m talking about. We are deep emotion creatures and  blah blah blah. I would say that my emotions can get in the way sometimes, but am I bipolar like other Cancers that I know then no. I try to control them for the most part.

This is why I laugh and smile a lot to hide from myself in a way. I find when I stay busy by talking and interacting with others so I can take a vacation for a little while. Not to fall back into the same pattern, but then my dreams trigger my past reminding me again why I hate thinking at all.

So today’s point is that I am stuck in my own mind and I never going to escape. That’s just great.

That's Just Me

If I had to describe my language I would most likely have to say that it is more northern then southern, but when I did travel further up north to New York from DC on a college tour, our class was told that we had Southern accents. Now with that said it is an insult to say that someone from DC sounds southern because that is not what we categorized ourselves with. I think that comes from us defining the south with these thick country accents that we know for a fact that we not have.

In my opinion, North Carolina it is a mix of different accents. Some with thick country accents, others with slim to medium accents, and lastly a few with none. I feel that the way that you talk comes from how your parents talked to you as a child.

I know personally I was outcast from others at school simply because of the way that I talked. I know pretty dumb right. In school, by my fellow classmates I was told that I talked proper or white or like a valley girl or a 10 year old kid. Hey you can disagree with me, but that is what I was told. I was soft spoken and didn’t yell at the top of my lungs like many of the other people at my school. I think I was out casted because I didn’t talk like most of my peers.

The thing with me was that I did not want to talk like many of the other people living in the same neighborhoods as me. I wanted to be understood by the world not put into a category as she’s ghetto or hood because let’s be honest that’s how we categorize black people (uneducated, poor, and ignorant). My classmates did not understand that I didn’t want to be stuck in a bubble my whole unable to get a job and provide for myself. My speech was away for me to escape all of that.

Well for my light young voice there isn’t much I can do about that. I guess I will just have to live with it. It’s just the way I talk.

Unsettled Business

While in class, there was some talk about how literacy should be written in a way for the English consumer to understand after giving our opinions on an excerpt,” To Tame A Wild Tongue.”  I believe that the writer should think about the consumer when writing a book, but I believe is the writer’s job to write for his or her self.

I mean the book name is”To Tame a Wild Tongue.” The writer is making her point that while she is learning English, you cannot control her native tongue by the show of examples that she gives where she jumps from English to Spanish to Mexican in two seconds. It is her story so let her tell it. It is the view of the world through her eyes not mines and not yours.

This woman was beaten as a kid for speaking her native language is school, which is ridiculous. If I traveled to another country and I did not speak the language I would not want to happen to me, but that does mean I have to conform to that country’s spoken tongue. It means that I will embrace mine while learning the second language, which at the end of may give me the chance at a better job.

So my point today is that it is not the job of this writer to subject to the American way of writing just because she lives here. American just need to stop being in their own little world because the world is bigger than they want to believe with 6,700 languages floating around. Literacy is meant to push limit and the buttons of people so however that writer chooses to do so be my guest.

Snow Storm

Well as usual when I turn on my computer and get on to the internet I start my journey on Yahoo. Today when I looked at the topic box, I saw that the Northeast was going to get a major snow storm this week and all I have to say is that I am completely jealous.

I’m jealous only because I love the snow. I’ve loved it every since I was a little girl and to know that during my time here in North Carolina, I may not see one flake fall from the sky is really disappointing. See I’m from Washington D.C and living there I know I will see a flake or two during the winter season.

Don’t get me wrong I like being here for school, but I know that most people will agree that they would love to receive a snow day. Is that so wrong to ask for or is it?

Let’s turn the tables a little bit, while reading the story it claims that this is Seattle’s worst snow storm since 1985. Now that is a long time and the only thing that I can think about after reading this is global warming. The Earth is unstable and it is quickly trying to adjust to changes, which means we are facing more snow or hotter summer.

The good new is that when you hear global warming people think the world is going to be destroyed, but that is not the case. The Earth is only trying to fix itself, simply and plain. Now looking back I should not be jealous at all because due to the world evolving I might be seeing that snow I was looking forward to all along.

Be Careful

                                                      WATCH THE VIDEO FIRST

So recently, I was thinking about a video that really caught my eye and I thought of this one. This video features a so-called brave father trying to capture this huge spider on the ceiling with a food container while his young daughter video tapes the whole event. When the father slowly reaches up to trap the spider, it moves and falls on him. Leaving him and his daughter (who dropped the camera) running for dear life.  

 First of all, where do these people LIVE to have spiders like this? Second, if he did capture the spider with the container, how did he plan to close the other side once the spider was inside? Lastly, did he leave a window open? I mean how to these things get into a house in the first place. This situation was destined for disaster.

After watching the video, at first glance I wasn’t sure if I should have been afraid or if I should have laughed at the father for doing something really stupid in my opinion. The father put himself and his daughter at risk of being bitten by the spider and having to make a trip to the emergence room.

The funny thing is that the video does not stop there. The father posted more videos of him trying to catches these enormous creatures. Yeah, crazy, huh? Maybe, he should consider moving somewhere else for a while.

I know that I am terrified of spiders and if I was in that house I would have been long gone as soon as I saw it. I have learned two valuable lesson after watching this video though. Embrace my fear of spiders and to listen to little kids have to say because obviously they’re always right. At the end of the day, we all do go onto YouTube to watch people make a fool out of themselves and have a good laugh about it later.